Today I took a break from social media and the internet.
I went for lunch with friends.
I smiled and I laughed and I spoke of the good times.
I spoke of the times that I was sharing with my son's the changes in them and the amazing progress they seem to make with every day that passes.
But somewhere in the distance, on the social media I was ignoring, a friend was crying.
A friend I have not actually met that many times but yet I know better than most I see on a daily basis.
She was crying because she had just lost one of the most precious things in her life.
Her baby girl.
We were pregnant at the same time, I kept in touch and up to date with her progress, as I think she did mine.
I congratulated her on the birth of her beautiful bouncing baby girl and was slightly jealous that she got to buy pink things and yet I again had blue on the horizon.
We were a few months apart but a few months is a long time in the baby world. The gap soon closes though as they grow and I knew eventually they'd be walking around and bouncing off things together at events, along with several others of a similar age.
But tragically the gap between Rocky and Matilda will get ever bigger now, as today I sadly heard the news that she passed away in her sleep.
It's amazing how quick your whole world can change and that one feed, which you do every day, can be so different and so poignant and that everything you do you seem to take in much more than you did before.
Her parents did nothing different last night to any other in the short 9 months she was alive and yet she passed away.
Tonight I will hold Rocky in my arms that bit tighter as I feed him and I will go in and kiss Kyd good night that one extra time.
I pray to God that he watches down on that family that bit more over the coming months, as they come to terms with the death of their beautiful baby girl.
Life is so short and often cruel, as we in the Blogosphere have learnt so horrendously this past few months.
Please join me in prayer, in lighting a candle and in loving memory of that beautiful baby girl and the well being of her family in the months to come.
Sweet Dreams Beautiful Matilda...