Thursday, 31 May 2012
Pregnancy Diary: Driving Test at 32wks = FAIL!
I am not surprised, upset or annoyed though I'm just bleuggghhh... I had a bit of a cry when I got back though because it was my own fault, they were stupid mistakes and I am slightly hormonal, you know being 32 weeks pregnant and all that! But really I am not kicking myself too much about it, there's only a 43% pass rate on the test itself and I wasn't alone, the other people taking the test this morning failed too... hurrah!... is that selfish?
It was silly really, I worked myself up so much that my lack of sleep due to being pregnant became lack of sleep from pregnancy AND nerves... brilliant stuff. It was like someone was pinning my eyes open last night. I tried to stop myself from being nervous, but my body just took it upon itself to do what it wanted. For some reason my brain wasn't attached to my feet, they were just doing what they wanted to do and I was shaking like a druggie going cold turkey. I have tremors at the best of times, nerves or no nerves, but only in my hands, so technically that, I was expecting. But my whole body was at it today... still is!... My whole body was shaking so much it was like a leaf on a windy day and the Examiner actually said to me that maybe my Anti Natal breathing exercises might come in handy at that moment.... hahahahahaha brilliant! He kept saying deep breaths... If truth be told I genuinely couldn't have taken a deep breath even if I'd wanted to, I was struggling to breathe in general everyday life without the nerves of the test. The man was lovely he even laughed as I told myself to F' Off then apologised to him for my language hahaha.... It didn't help that my belly looked like something out of the film Alien the whole way through, you'd think he'd have played ball and kept the party moves to a minimal just for that short time... nah awkward little.... even the examiner could see it he said it was weird.
My hormones are all over the place already this whole test thing wasn't helping, learning to drive has been hard enough work in between pregnancy blips, being in and out of hospital, looking after Kyd and a general on going fear of driving so to get me to this point was a miracle in itself anyway. This time last year if you'd have told me that I'd be doing my driving test whilst 32 weeks pregnant... I'd have asked you what you'd been drinking...... and then asked you to share it no doubt.
All in all I didn't do too badly if I'm honest I just messed up a little bit because I was so nervous, tired and pregnant..... only thing is this isn't going to change any time soon and I need to pass before this little sprout is out. I need to learn to drive because I can't get Kyd around with the pushchair etc as it is, add in an extra pushchair and a newborn baby.... It's not going to happen!!
I just see this as an uber expensive lesson... let's hope the next one is the final uber expensive lesson I have to take... I've got a Baby to get ready for then pay for, I'm Learning to Drive, I have a Wedding next year to pay for & the stupid costs of living down South aren't helping..... I'm skint already! (I never do things by halves)
Maybe this whole learning to drive whilst pregnant thing isn't that clever! Well the learning bit is fine, the test bit however has proven to be a little bit more tricky!... Second time lucky maybe?? failing that 3rd... or 4th... even?? I'll get there eventually.....